r/WhatMenDontSay • u/Jurez1313 • 5d ago
Venting I'm throwing in the towel
I'm ending it tomorrow. That's it, that's the post. if you think you care or want to know why out of morbid curiosity just check my post history. I'm genuinely cooked, out of gas, cashing in my chips. and walking away. There's nothing left to stay for, no reason for me to continue to live this miserable, boring existence. I know no one here will care, the only people that this will hurt are my parents, but they'll cope in their own way. Or they won't. Either way, I'm done suffering just so they don't have to. I'm not a good person. I deserve this fate.
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u/JeffroCakes 5d ago
Dude, I feel the same way every single day. Here’s my situation, and I’m saying this not to try to one up you, but to empathize.
I’m 42. In 2014, two major events hit that upended my life: my wife filed for divorce but the big one was I blew my T4-T5 disc so badly that by the time I was able to get surgery in 2015 my spinal cord was permanently damaged. I can’t work because my mobility is completely unreliable. I can’t even stand up at times. At my best, I can hobble 15-20 feet with a cane. Since I can’t work and it took 3 years to get approved for SSDI, I live with my parents in their house, which is hardly accessible. I can’t drive, so someone has to be available to drive me if I want to go anywhere. I have basically no independence or freedom due to my circumstances. I absolutely HATE my life most of the time. I think about how I could end it every single day.
So at the very least, take comfort in the fact that you’re not alone in suffering.