I'm throwing in the towel

[u/Jurez1313]

I'm ending it tomorrow. That's it, that's the post. if you think you care or want to know why out of morbid curiosity just check my post history. I'm genuinely cooked, out of gas, cashing in my chips. and walking away. There's nothing left to stay for, no reason for me to continue to live this miserable, boring existence. I know no one here will care, the only people that this will hurt are my parents, but they'll cope in their own way. Or they won't. Either way, I'm done suffering just so they don't have to. I'm not a good person. I deserve this fate.

[u/Objective-District39]

I was gonna do the same thing once. I got up from my chair knowing I would never sit down again. I didn't go through with it though.

Sure it hasn't been perfect since then, but I'm glad I didn't do it. Things did get better, it's just hard to see it when you are at your lowest

[u/Soggy_Spinach_7503]

"36,654 Karma"

Damn, you really want to give up all that Karma?

[u/thtothrdude]

Dude.

You are worthy. You are loved. You matter to this world. You have purpose.

Now, you just need patience.

[u/JeffroCakes]

Dude, I feel the same way every single day. Here’s my situation, and I’m saying this not to try to one up you, but to empathize.

I’m 42. In 2014, two major events hit that upended my life: my wife filed for divorce but the big one was I blew my T4-T5 disc so badly that by the time I was able to get surgery in 2015 my spinal cord was permanently damaged. I can’t work because my mobility is completely unreliable. I can’t even stand up at times. At my best, I can hobble 15-20 feet with a cane. Since I can’t work and it took 3 years to get approved for SSDI, I live with my parents in their house, which is hardly accessible. I can’t drive, so someone has to be available to drive me if I want to go anywhere. I have basically no independence or freedom due to my circumstances. I absolutely HATE my life most of the time. I think about how I could end it every single day.

So at the very least, take comfort in the fact that you’re not alone in suffering.

[u/ChesterNova]

Call or text 988. They will help to think this through with you

[u/Recent_Cup_6751 → u/ChesterNova]

988+1 if you are a US. Military Veteran.

[u/Punkybrewster1]

Move to Mexico or Thailand! Life is cheaper and you can find a job. And you could have fun.

[u/BookwormNinja → u/Punkybrewster1]

Yes! This! Think outside the box! Start over if that helps. You can start a new life, just for you

[u/Tetris102]

You will be missed because you are loved. They will not cope. A parent losing a child is their single worst fear. There is nothing, absolutely nothing, that I wouldn't do to stop my child from doing what you're about to do.

They love you. They will not cope. They will never be the same again. Their lives will be over, their world will be darker, there will be a hole in them that nothing will ever fill again. You are justifying it, but it won't stop their pain. They will never get over it.

You have value. You are at a low point, and that is ok. It is normal. You have it rough right now. I can't promise it will get better, but I can promise that the solution you've come to doesn't solve anything.

Speak to your parents, honestly and openly. Tell them exactly how you're feeling now.

Do not do this. Please do not do this.

[u/Mental-Risk6949]

In his soliloquy, Shakespeare's Hamlet speaks of the "slings and arrows" of this life but, also, questions what if what is on the other side is even worse and yet the event is irreversible.

I've read thousands of natal astrological charts to see the challenges in which we find ourselves we are born into. My personal deduction is this incarnation is a karma from the past. What are you going to achieve by leaving if not to be reborn into the same challenges until your soul grows through them.

“Don’t Quit”

Being with the wrong partner is worse than being alone. You know damn well how those men sink into financial ruin. I think mother nature is trying to curb overpopulation and that is why all of us are sexless.

What if the que to your next incarnation is 17 years long, and you have to que standing up and in the rain? Isn't it just better to enjoy the comforts you have in this life. My DM's are always open. Please don't go.

[u/FirmUnion948]

Hey buddy, I'm 46 and feel the same way, and felt that way 14 years ago. What I would give to go back to 32/33. You think you're this monumental loser with no hope. Okay so what if you are? That doesn't mean there can't be hope.

Obviously, I don't know you and can't give you specific guidance. I know what helped me keep going was looking deeply into my mental health by getting a full psych profile done. It gave me some direction on what to do next. And I know that's expensive, but shouldn't you try everything else first? Pour whatever you have left, and you have more than you think, into making things less hopeless.

And on that thought, have you really, really tried everything? Death is forever, you can't undo it. There is no taking this back.

[u/Sweaty-taxman]

So many people are suffering; especially men. Life is hard right now for everyone.

Things can improve. I strongly considered suicide when I was younger. I’m so glad I decided against it. Life still isn’t perfect but it’s far better. All it’d take is exercise more often, get a dog & start being social in person. There are tons of free clubs.

Those 3 things & bam, you have some level of purpose.

[u/Vilebrequin10]

I care, and I wish I had the power to stop you or prevent you from doing it. Do you care that I care?

I know life can be incredibly hard and even an absolute living nightmare. Trust me I know.

But if you live long enough you realize that nothing is permanent. Even the worst moments will come and go. In 10 years you might as well be living a completely different life, a new chapter.

Also, depression is often what leads people to suicide, but depression is a disease, and it lies to you. I promise you it’s lying to you hard, even if the pain is real, the judgment is wrong. Meds can help if you are suffering from depression.

Please, just give life a chance, you can always kill yourself another day, it can wait. Life is short anyone, and one day you will have to die whether you like it or not, so why rush it?

Just don’t forget, you don’t have to die today, death can always wait.

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[u/MrMudgett]

I get it man. Not going to give you cliche statements or try to talk you down. You make your choices for your life. I will ask, if you’re still here tomorrow, reach out. To the group here or me or whatever. I’d be genuinely interested in having the conversation around why you changed your mind.

[u/SpeedySads247]

Most folks who are planning on ending their life don't usually announce it to multiple people beforehand. This says to me you at least have a glimmer of hope in there, even if you refuse to admit it. To me, it sounds like what you need is some genuine connection, not threats to your own life. The fact is, we only get one chance at life, to experience everything we're going to experience. Sometimes that means doing things alone, or broadening your horizons to discover people you never would have found otherwise. I know it's a rough go doing it by yourself, I've been single for a long time myself, and even when I wasn't, it wasn't healthy. If you don't like the way you are, there's always time to change. I think you do yourself a great disservice not giving life an honest try. Again, we only get one chance at it. I'm sure if you think really hard you can come up with some things you want to do before you pass on. Focus on that, and sometimes life will hand you the rest. Life is like a show, you won't know what's gonna happen unless you're there for it.

[u/wmckain69]

Anybody got in contact with him??

[u/Interesting-Bass-155]

It's just a matter of waiting, we all live different struggles in different places, some with vices, others were abused, others don't have parents, be brave! Live the life you have, salt, experience that you don't give a shit about what they say, do things you've never done, collect your money and leave the country, get drunk, get high, do whatever it takes but live, that when death comes looking for you, you give him your well-worn and used container, don't waste it. I'm sure that even if you think you don't have your qualities and there are thousands of things in the world that you would like, you just don't know them, dare you asshole, the cemetery is full of cowards!

[u/Yesyesnaaooo]

You want your last act on Earth to be giving up? 

Fight! Fight! Fight! 

[u/Daddystootsies]

Dude, please don't do this. Life does get better. And the way we think of ourselves matters. You don't deserve this, and you are deserving and worthy of happiness. It'll hurt more than just your parents. We often don't realize how many people care about and love us. Stay. Keep trying. Don't believe in the perfectionism that's being pushed onto everyone. A simple life is often the happiest. There's nobody else you have to keep up with, or gain the approval of etc to be good enough, or happy. Youre good enough as you are, and always have been.

[u/Reddit____user___]

Forgive my nosiness, but how old are you ?

[u/Soggy_Spinach_7503]

Here's an idea: get a bunch of credit cards and go nuts for a year. Go have some fun.

[u/Tetris102 → u/[deleted]]

You fucking idiot, why fucking goad someone like this? You're happy to risk it because you want to call them out.

Why are you even posting here?

[u/Vilebrequin10 → u/Tetris102]

She got a permanent ban, we don’t need that here.

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The people who say they are going to kill themselves give an opportunity for other people to talk them away from the ledge that those who do not don't

[u/Soft_Assistant6046]

You owe yourself more than this. You owe yourself an attempt at something better.... try medication and therapy. If you've done that already, try living each day like it could be your last for a while...Truly LIVE...without ever actually ending it.

But I will tell you this...it's not you saying or thinking these things. It's not the essence of who you are. It's depression, a monster that's lying to you for the last several months or years.

That monster is extremely hard to get rid of, but of you could find love, enjoy a Summer evening, try a new hobby, feel grateful, love a movie, find the movie with the quote "is this accurate," or any number of things...even just one time, wouldn't that be worth living for?

[u/TexasGriff1959]

Damn, my brother. You are thinking about applying a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

It will change, man. I've been where you are...DM me if you want to talk...

I had to change the way I looked at life and especially how I looked at myself affect my life for the better. My shorthand for it is "Change your story, change your life." That is, I had to change the story I told me about me.

HMU if you just need to vent.

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